Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Surreal


Surreal...How else to explain the first few weeks of deployment. It feels like I am walking in a fog. Today I found myself wandering around the commissary without even glancing at my list. I have been down this road before and the feeling never changes. Until Dominic is safe on the ground, settled in, and able to shoot us an e-mail here and there, I know this feeling will hang around. I plan on it being different every time but it never is. It's hard getting used to being by myself. I have the kids, but it's not the same. No more listening for the van to pull up front at night, no more "I love you" texts during the day, and no more impromptu lunches. If the hubby was here I know just what I'd text..."How bout that sun Eyore?" I call my hubby Eyore because when it comes to weather he only likes sun and we live in WA, need I say more. I tease him about it all the time. Anyway that's what I would text him. He would of course text something amusing back, but for now I will have to wait. His last text was from McChord AFB last night as he loaded the plane. Tonight I will take over all the stuff that dad likes to do. It will be the first time I drive 20 minutes to Lacey to take my son to youth group. His dad always gets home on Wednesday night by 6:30 to drive him, no matter what, even if he has to go back into work. It will be strange, but it will be my job. Until he returns things will be like looking through glass, but I know he is trained well and will do his best to keep him and his soldiers safe. For now, we will survive.

10 comments:

Pamela said...

Beautiful post, Christina.

Mari said...

I've been thinking and praying for all of you today.

Mari said...

I just saw your comment on my blog. Yes - it does make sense. You're in a time of transition, everything is different and for now you are trying to find a new normal.

The Not So Perfect Housewife said...

Saying some prayers of peace for you at this very minute..

Blessings

Noe Noe Girl...A Queen of all Trades. said...

(((HUGS))) Girlfriend. Peace be with you and yours.
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Pamela said...

I'm going to sit down in the morning and surf through your blog links. I've got a couple of them in my Google Reader already and really enjoy their posts. I can't believe I have 42 followers - I love it! I need to comment more because you often meet new blog friends that way.

Noe Noe Girl...A Queen of all Trades. said...

Hey Christina! I'm still here. All is well.I have been on a break. I'll be back to posting soon! I have missed you too.
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Sarah Ruth said...

Don't you hate that feeling. I STILL feel that way some days, and my hubby has been deployed for 8 months now. It sucks. You are in my prayers.

Susanne said...

I can't imagine how difficult it would be each time. My prayers are with you!

Tonya said...

Praying for you and your family. Deployments are no piece of cake, but with God's help, you will make it through!